During my many attempts at getting sober, I’ve found that any level of giving or receiving trust has proven a difficult and elusive, almost nearly impossible. Just as sobriety seems to be a “unicorn”, trust seems to be the same. I’ve spent hours reflecting on how I have gotten to where I am. I’ve … Read moreTrust and Betrayal – Sober Triggers
In this post I’m going to work to the best of my ability to work through the “Why” of my failure. I’m nervous since I know this won’t be pretty and will actually be messy for me. The pain of the wounds I know I’m about to open and face make my stomach turn and … Read moreWhy?
I messed up again. I made it further than I ever have before, but I failed. Atleast that’s how I feel about it. No matter the amount of literature I read, or uplifting stories I find with each saying how I shouldn’t beat myself up and I should look toward the future with open eyes … Read moreDay 16 to 0 – Another Fresh Start
So I finally broke down and asked my husband not to offer me or ask me if I wanted a glass of wine with lunch after his round of golf with his parents. It was a lovely day all around. I got up slightly early with jet lag being 3 hours behind and took a … Read moreVacation Drinking (or Not) and my Enabler